I won't be doing a picture spam cause I'm extremely lazy and I wanna blog out my thoughts today so feel free to leave.
Have been thinking a lot lately and because it's a new year, I have been thinking which year is the best year I ever had. Apparently is the year when I was 18. I am of a legal age to club, I don't experience any sadness like the year before, my ex bf gave me a killer blow which I'm seriously thankful for that (no, it's not sarcasm), I saw true colours of some girls, I got close to W and that period was the best period because I love having my freedom and didn't bother to care much fuck about him too because it was more or less playing around with each other, getting drunk like mad in the clubs, dancing on the podium like a mad girl, my clique are still intact, clubbing together with all my friends together and drinking; seriously I miss my 18th year old life. Have been cutting down a lot on alcohol and I don't even know that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm tired of life. Very tired. Torn apart. I need someone. Someone who can hug me and let me break down completely so I can stand back up on my feet again. But I can turn to no one. Not anymore. Just, let me die. Mighty Lord, please give me the strength to carry on in life.
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