You're scared... So I'm paying for it with my heart.

Alvin likes this photo. Haha. I know it's unglam to have my bra strap seen. But still, it was just so last minute Alvin offered to take some photos of me. And so, Alvin has become my photographer of the day. Only thing is, he's a photographer without a camera. LOL. Well. Alvin has been working. And I'm starting work soon. Hehe. So the time with friends and Alvin will be greatly reduced. Oh well. Looking at the bright side, I could learn my independence and avoid quarrels with Alvin. Sigh. I need girls in my life. ALL my friends are guys. FML. Regardless of close friends, normal friends, friends that I could trust, are all guys. How pathetic. Any girls wants to be my girlfriend? Contact me at clairislee-smackyou@hotmail.com. Hahahaha. I'm just crapping. But it's true that my whole circle of friends are just guys. People said it's good. Means that I'm popular with guys. I say, it's pathetic! No one to go shopping with you. No one to just see you cry. No one you can rely on. Even Alvin thinks that if his circle of friends are all girls are just plainly pathetic.

Yes. My life is pathetic in this manner. But overall, it's still fine. Just don't let me have any breakdown. Everytime when I had a breakdown, I actually couldn't find anyone to talk to. Those whom I could find are always guys. Sometimes, girlfriends just had the ability to just sit there, listen to your woes, see you cry and scold that guy with you even if it's your fault. They wouldn't try to console you. They would support you in whatever you do. They understand your feelings the best. Guys would just see it in guy's manner. Never thinking that why are girls doing this. Sometimes it's just to protect your own relationship. Sometimes, it's just to protect you. Sometimes, girls just wants guys to care because they felt insecure. But guys would see it in another way. See it in a way that you don't trust him, you don't love him and whatever crap will just come out.

It's good to have a guy friend that can see things which you doesn't. But sometimes, you'll just need a little more encouragement than usual. Or maybe sometimes, I just need someone who can just see me cry and do nothing but offer me her shoulder to cry on. Guys wouldn't know what girls are thinking. Girls just want security. Something to secure her. But guys just simply do nothing. Haha. Enough of all these logics. Goodbye!