天下起雨了, 人是不快乐. 我的心真的受伤了.

I finally decided to blog after trying so hard to maintain all my emotions recently. I wonder if anyone out there, is like me, having problems and yet couldn't address to anyone? Well, brace yourself! I always tell myself there's always something better gonna happen after this ordeal has ended because " God is able to provide you with every blessing in abundance. -2Corinthians 9.8 " .  Do excuse me to be a little all religious over here but I guess there's no harm because I'm definitely proud of my religion. After heading back to church, finding all the peace I needed after being unstable for months, I do admit God has definitely make my life better. Rest, because God is working for you. Ok. Below will be just my emotions and thoughts so you guys can skip it. Haha.

I still remember months back, probably been half a year now, I broke off with my ex bf. I was all unstable, my best buddy was so worried about me because I'm walking towards the edge of depression and I was definitely finding help from some psychiatrist. So yeah. I was in a pretty bad shape at that point of time. Although everything is over for me (well, sort of) , I still couldn't recover from the hurt from half a year back. That invisible wound that everyone couldn't see, is so big that it's gonna hurt for at least a year or so. Everyday I'm waking up, facing this wound, tearing it up and trying to stitch back up as the day gone by. Same process I'm facing every single day. A without fail process, I must say. Of course, I don't say out my problems everyday and wallow myself in self pity. I'm always trying to live my life to the fullest even if I get myself drunk occasionally (Hey. That's not a bad thing. I am just trying some ways to release all my inner emotions) . Well, although my inner self is struggling, my physical self is quite awesome (Ok. Does that even makes any sense?) Just thought that I have a stable job now, I'm slowly working towards my goal as a lawyer or a paralegal, life isn't that bad after all. I love my job definitely. Besides the emotional part that is fucking me up, the rest of my life is quite good. HEH. Alright. Enough of ranting and being proud of myself that I'm doing something with my life, I shall just stopped blogging and get my ass back to work (You're damn right. I'm blogging while I'm working. Do not assume I have nothing to do. I do have piles of documents to handle. HAHAHA.) Alright. BYE BIIIIIIIII.