When people hurt you, think of them like sandpaper. They may scratch and hurt you but in the end, you end up polished and they useless. Thanks to those who hurt me, you make me strong and no doubt, I can always think things in a positive manner now. My mood has been plunging recently due to the side effects of quitting smoking immediately. Anger, insecurity, sadness, flu, sore throat and much more has kick in these past 2 days. Sadly to say, no one was by my side. Haha. Not even you. That's not the main point. So I pick myself up today. I stood up all on my own today and became stronger than yesterday. Throughout these few days, I have stopped smoking, I realised the only person that can break me and make me strong is myself. Therefore, mistakes will not be repeated thrice. I have done it the first time, the second time and not the third time. If tomorrow I can resist smoking temptation at Junwei's birthday chalet, I am safe to say I can stop smoking for good. And don't think too much. I'm quitting smoking for myself. Afterall, I just have to associate myself with those I despise and don't wanna be. This is how I gotten my drive for quitting smoking. I remember last time I really wanna quit smoking for my ex but it's ok. I mean sometimes, I should just think for myself. If one day he crashes me down again, I won't start to smoke again because I quit smoking for myself and not for him. Anyways, I don't know if my bitch really just wanna have dinner with me or she just sees my tweets in my private account and wanna accompany me, whichever it is, efforts are seen. Although I throw a grenade at you everytime, you never fail to call me out. I love you bitch, more than I love him, that's for sure. Irreplaceable (: There's still a lot more thoughts I wanna blog out, but I will not due to he's definitely reading this. Fyi, I still love you as much or even more just that I choose to let the both of us go for once. Just to see if you'll chase after me or other girls. I'll let nature take it's course. If he's back then good for me, if he's not, as least I won't be so upset anymore because there's a new path for me. A path without cigarettes (:
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