Here I am blogging cause I don't have things to do. Feels like writing down my thoughts. Well, I'm kinda afraid to fall again. My previous relationship is good. My ex treats me real sweet, he doesn't flirt, he doesn't play, doesn't two time, all his time is devoted to me, caring and is willing to forgive me for everything I have done. I'm really grateful for that. Similarly, I'm guilty too, because I can't give him back the same treatment. Because I know if I do it, I'll be over-doing. I'll be a control freak, I'll be someone who is paranoid everyday, I'll be a bloody bitch who check his phone everyday thinking if he sweet talk to girls, I'll not give him any freedom and etc. Therefore, I never allow myself to fall deeply in love again. No doubt my ex and I are still pushing and puling here and there, all I can say is he really loves me a lot. No one has ever loves me this much and so afraid of losing me. He thinks I deserve a second chance for all I have done while I think I should just burn in hell. Even though some stuffs are inevitable, I didn't initiate it but it still pricks me whenever I think of it. Wlsl, thanks for all the love you have shower me. Never felt so love before. Even though we are not together, but, Ily, from the deepest feeling of my heart (:
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