Been an addicted blogger nowadays because I'm bored and I need somewhere to write down my thoughts. Well, I tried so hard to change back to the old me. I wanted back that innocent little girl. But I can never go back to the past anymore. Be it I wanna run away and avoid what happen back then or I've just changed too much, I simply can't change back to the past anymore. No doubt my last breakup has affect me real much. In fact, much greater than I thought I would be. I couldn't get it through without my friends but I can never get back to what I used to be anymore. I've changed. Yes. I do admit that to a certain extend but some stuffs are just my character, just that I didn't show them out. Don't treat love too seriously. You'll get played back. That's what I learn. I used to hate him. Hated him for lifting up my hopes and crashing it down time and time again. He blamed me for changing so much. But hell no. I just stopped acting the way he wanted me to be. Well, if you ask me now, I don't hate him but I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I don't know whether he'll be reading this but yes, I rather be a total strangers with him than being friends with him. I mean, why torture each other? I've let go completely and move on but it's kinda awkward I guess. Don't think I'll be talking to him unless he talks to me first.
Oh well. Time for bed. It's 1am already. Time to sleep! I wonder what he's (obviously not my ex) doing. Wonder have I ever crossed his heart or mind at times. So confused ):
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