Emotional

Can I get a little tiny weeny emo here? You're free to leave if you don't like ok.

Well, it's the 3rd today. People who have been a long reader of mine or my good friend should be able to guess that it's actually my 19th monthsary with my ex boyfriend. And yes. We broke off 2 weeks ago. I'm still quite affected by this relationship. Yes. I might be able to sleep well, eat well and move on with my life well. But definitely it's hard for me to completely forget about this relationship. Letting go is easy. But it's what you leave behind that's hard. I might act like some easy going lady which hug and hold around guy's waist etc. But it will always comes to a point where you'll be all alone, sitting down, looking back at the memories. And of course, those guys that I hug and cling around their arms are guys whom I know damn well and damn long. So if you're gonna judge me by saying I'm a slut because I go around hugging guys, then please go ahead. Because I firmly believe it's how you look at yourself and not how people look at you. True friends will know what kind of person I am. I don't need many true friends. Just a few will do. I'm standing strong. I can be happy. But you'll never know how much pain I've hide inside.

I wonder if you still remember our date.
I wonder if you still remember our hugs.
I wonder if you still remember our kisses.
I wonder if you still remember our promises.
I wonder if you still remember the look of yours when you told me if you're rich, you wanna just get a ring and propose to me right now.
I wonder if you still remember our first video together.
I wonder if you still remember all the little quarrels we have.
I wonder if you still remember the way you cried when I surprise you with your Bvlgari wallet.
I wonder if you still remember our first cycling ton
I wonder if you still remember our trip to the zoo.
I wonder if you still remember how we celebrate our Christmas together.
I wonder if you still remember all the songs you wrote for me.

我想说声对不起，
我让你伤心又让你发脾气。
并不是故意，敏感多心，
只是非常的爱你baby。
请你不要在哭泣，
泪水都不应该我就在这里。
我会好好地珍惜你，
因为我永远不想失去你。

030909, I miss you.